Sunday, November 30, 2014

Sunday Rant #2 Why?

Everything seems to be falling apart in my life lately (hence why I didn't follow trough with the promise of making #Sunday Rant a biweekly thing)... 

I'm having a hard time keeping up with my deadlines, my coworkers are a huge pain in the butt (and this is me being nice!), I have millions of things to do and I still have to squeeze my significant other into my already jammed schedule. The problem? Our schedules are complete opposites and the load of work doesn't seem like it will slow down anytime soon. 

Have I mention that my head has been trying to kill me lately too? And my headache medicine does not work as effectively as it used to which leaves me with the hard (super hard) task of trying to find something that works - and believe me, my headaches are very demanding with its medicines, the aspirin has long stopped working for me. 

So I ask why. Why me? Why does life has to me so messed up? And you know what else doesn't help the situation? My significant other seems to think it's my fault, that I don't try hard enough. I just don't know what else to do.

I'm tired, I need to sleep in for like a week to be remotely okay again and nobody seems to understand that.



Thursday, November 6, 2014

Throwback Thursday: Back Home

Words seem to be running away from me lately. Or rather it takes me a lot longer to reach them ever since I returned from my stay studying abroad. I guess spending that much time away from home changes the way one sees the world. I discovered traits in me I didn't know I possessed (like you'd be amazed on how creative a hungry student can get with cooking minced meat in order to not feel like you're eating the same thing everyday - not that I did, but still...), and realized I can endure I lot more - I've stretched my breaking point beyond anything I had ever experienced and I feel stronger for it.

It changes the way you remember the people you know too. Not being there everyday didn't really changed much for me, not really. And it saddens me deeply to know just how little people you care about care about you when you're not around. Is in times like this you know whose friends are for life and whose aren't, because lets face it: doesn't it feels good to know someone misses you in those days you are feeling homesick? I believe being away gave me a new and improved filter for bullshit excuses that might become handy in the future.

And although I'll keep telling anyone that asks me that if I had the chance to redo it all over again I'd choose a different place to go, I don't really. It wasn't perfect, it had a lot of ups and downs, most of the "natives" are very (very) egocentric and conceited (but I did get to meet some of the very best of them) and I missed eating fish (never in a million year I thought I'd ever say such thing)... But it was a once in a life time experience, and I wouldn't trade it for the world.

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~Andie Maars

Hello :D 

I had planned on posting this a long time ago but I was struggling to make the right words come out...

Sunday, November 2, 2014

Late Sunday Rant #1

I'm back. After some crazy months of moving away, far far away, and then moving all the way back home, finishing my BSc and starting a new phase in my life, and over all just being grateful for all I have, I'm back (not sure for how long tough)... and I've found a new thing to hate! Yay!

Ok, ok, it's not really new... just found out lately I... hum...- hate is a really strong word, lets just go with strongly dislike - yes, I strongly dislike it even more than before. 

I strongly dislike people that take other people for granted. Not that there is anything wrong in doing it to a certain extent, because I sure we all have done it in some point in our lives... I'm talking about those people that take other people for granted in a "I'm-gonna-break-up-with-you-because-I-wanna-party-24/7-and-sleep-around-but-I-still-want-you-to-wait-for-me" kind of way. I find it utmost disrespectful towards another's feelings, and that is plain wrong.

And then we have the people who not only condone this kind of behavior, but encourage it nonetheless. It's like being young is an excuse to act crazy and step onto other people feelings - but there's crazy and then there's insane, and this falls in the last category. I get it, ok?! We will never be as young as we are right now, and although people say life is too short, living is the longest thing we'll spend time doing. So why not live it to the fullest? 

But, is it all excusable just because we want to be "young, wild and free"? I don't think so. I believe one shouldn't have the need (nor the rights) to achieve happiness by expenses of another's misfortunes. 

But what do I know really?

~Andie Maars

Hello :D
I'm sorry for the suuuuuuper long absence. I'll try not to let it happen again.
Here's my new...thing... Late Sunday Rants #1! Let's try and make it a weekly thing (or at least biweekly, I know I'm lazy)